For the last several weeks, most days if you asked me what day it was I would tell you the wrong one. Usually a day or two ahead of what it actually was. This week, for example, Tuesday felt like Thursday all ready to me. So on Thursday I was sure it was Saturday, and yesterday I almost put horses out an hour early so I could change my clothes and get ready for church. Except it was Friday, not Sunday, and thank goodness I realized it in time before I got myself all gussied up. (Which, honestly isn't very gussied but does usually involve a dress or skirt, earrings, and not having my hair in a ponytail. LOL)
While yesterday may not have been Sunday, it was the first day of August. All ready!
Well, no wonder I'm starting to feel a) burnt out on gardening and b) like my house needs to be gutted and thoroughly cleaned and c) like I need to run away and go somewhere relaxing!
As the sole caretaker of the animals and the garden as well as the person in charge of all things food at this little place here, summer is not a time when I laze around, take vacations, and generally wonder what to do with my time. Summer is like full speed ahead, balls to the wall, hit the ground running every morning and don't sit down until dark every night. Not that I don't hit the ground running every morning all year long (I suspect this is a habit I really should change to be a bit more relaxing and warm up to the new day kind of lifestyle), but in summer with it's long hours of daylight that's 14+ hours a day 7 days a week of not sitting down with the exception of eating meals (and church on Sunday). And, like the hit the ground running morning ritual, meals typically are not a long time of sitting, more like the minimum seat time necessary for refueling and then I'm squealing tires out of pit row and back into the race.
You know, the fact that DH doesn't adhere to the same seasonal extra-work-can't-leave-home schedule and has been gone (*ahem* playing in the name of taking various family members on canoe and kayak float trips) most weekends since the middle of June probably doesn't help with my glut of work that keeps me from sitting and relaxing. Or taking even a day off to recharge myself somewhere that I'm not responsible for making sure 36 mouths have enough to eat (20 young chickens, 9 adult chickens, 4 horses, 1 cat, DH and myself) and that the garden isn't shriveling up from lack of rain/watering or getting overrun in weeds that smother my veggie crops and that the dishes get washed and laundry gets done and put away and bills are paid and the floors aren't too gritty or the furniture too dusty or the trash too stinky before it gets taken out to the bin. . .
I'm all for making hay while the sun shines, but you know, I need to include down time for enjoying while the sun shines, not months from now when it's chilly and damp and icky outside. I like sunshine. I love sunshine. That's part of why I practically live outside in the summer months; I can't pull myself indoors away from the sunshine so I go whole hog on outdoor work. Do I need to raise our own meat birds? Perhaps I could, in coming years, buy them from a local person raising them. Do I need to grow as much as possible in a quarter-acre garden and tend it by myself? And then be the only one harvesting and preserving the bounty? While some of that is a yes because of my dietary needs (ie avoiding a lot of additives in food from the stores), maybe we should do some budget shuffling to procure the same good food from someone else.
And then there's the whole point b) gut the house thing. . . Housekeeping is not my favorite task. And, when I'm outside all day, housekeeping is reduced to the bare minimums. Which, by this time in the summer, means that the inside of my house is driving me nuts because no one else here takes care of it (lookin' at you, DH, who's idea of tidying is to every few weeks stack things in piles for me to take care of). When the weather changes and I'm forced indoors in a few months, I really don't want to be in a cluttered mess of a place. Housekeeping fairy, where are you? I could use a visit from your magic wand. . .
Which leads me to c) wanting to run away. The urge to take a day trip is getting stronger. I need to wait until after this week--broiler chickens are meeting their doom going to freezer camp--and find a farm care person who is willing to not just do feeding and turnouts but also clean stalls (DH adamantly refuses to help with stalls) and then I think I going to run a few hours away and do some beachside rockhounding. Still outdoors, but no garden weeds or chores in sight, and while it's still August, i.e. summer, i.e. sun shining!
Meanwhile, let me offer you a sampling of photos of things going on at this little place here lately. If it weren't for the fact that phones these days are practically never separate from our bodies, and that phones have cameras, I probably wouldn't have any pictures of my life to remember summers by. Hence, this collection of things that caught my eye, or I thought about sharing as I've gone about my busy days.
the tomato patch, with grape arbor in the background
friendly neighborhood cat (not my cat, therefore not a mouth I feed)
visiting me while I was checking for pickle-sized cucumbers
the wild blackberries on the edge of the woods are getting ripe;
this was enough to enjoy with my yogurt and granola breakfast the next morning
Faline helping me hang laundry the day DD1 needed me to watch her for a while after VBS
blue swallowtail
reddish day lilies
little green frog
a brown garter? snake
(not sure, as I don't know if they come in brown; first brown one I've seen)
running some errands in Sweet Madame Blue and she rolled 3100 miles
(that lady lives a life of luxury and goes out in good weather only)
K3 having a riding lesson/helping me train the LBM
(owner wants 'anyone to be able to jump on and ride')